I have been on cloud 9 for the past few days and I don't even know where it came from; what I DO know is that it feels so great! Yesterday I was thinking about the last time I felt this way and it hasn't been since junior year of high school, can you believe it?! I used to be such a happy person, always ready to go out and have a blast. Shit, I had fun sitting around just listening to music. Then I don't know what happened but I started getting lazy, mean, and negative all the time. And it progressively got worse. My life just wasn't going the way I'd planned and I was kinda going through the motions day-to-day instead of actually living, if that makes sense?
Sure, I'm stressed out about stuff now and I have a lot on my plate, but I feel strong enough to conquer it all and I think that strength comes from all kinds of aspects of my life; everything just feels right, like it finally fits and all the pieces are together for the most part. I finally feel like I'm doing what I am destined to do, and I'm where I'm destined to be. My professional life will (eventually) fall into place; PT feels like MY career and I'm loving the journey I have to take to get there. I'm learning so much and having a great time doing that; and once I start working in the field and getting paid to do what I love, it will be even better! My brother and I have gotten super tight since asshole dumped me and we are getting closer every day. I missed him so much and I'm so glad to have him in my life again. I'm also closer with my parents and spend a lot of time with them. And I am finally with someone who just feels right. The guys I've been with in the past: something just felt off, even from the beginning. I don't want to jump the gun because we've only been together for a little over 2 months but this one just FITS. He is so motivated to be better at whatever he does and that is such a turn on. He understands compromise. He treats me unbelievably well. All of my friends and family LOVE him to death (he gets invited more places than I do!!). He puts me above everything and anything and I love that so much. This is all just so friggin awesome and I can't believe this is MY life!!!
The good mood is really helping with my eats and workouts too. I have so much energy that I don't mind waking up at 4:30 every morning to get a workout in before school. Even school is coming easier because I actually LIKE working my ass off to understand things and do well (not that I didn't do well last semester - I made President's List - but it was tough to get through every day). I'm motivated to eat healthy and stay on track (even though I do have some slip ups, but nothing too crazy). I love this so much :)
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